2 weeks ago
Friday, January 12, 2007
When things are beyond my control, I feel flustered. Coming out of court today I wanted to run out the back door (had there been one) and just scream because the feelings of sadness and impotent outrage were overwhelming. The father of my grandson has won a court order to prevent my little 5 year old kiddo from spending the night at my house, instead the father getting the "first right of refusal" to veto it if he so choses. It sounds petty, but to me it is devastating. His selfish control issues have just crushed me. It isn't the end of the world but the evening bath, reading the bedtime stories and sweet good night hugs may now be rare or non-existent. It is all at the whim of an angry, troubled man.
No time out today. I have no serenity left.